When life has other plans

When life has other plans.
I have been away, nurturing the creative upheaval rising in my bones. It had called me to be patient and still and await its arrival.
So I waited and it came, inch by inch, slowly revealing itself to me in dreams, in symbolism and song. Glimpses of my free spirit, my internal artist showed themselves to me.
My creative shifts are calling for me to hang out at the edge of my comfort zone and really feel into my edges. Enough pretending, acting as if. More authentic engaged living. More writing, more photos, more painting, more creative pursuits, more loving, more patience ( this one is soooo hard) and ultimately more of myself in my everyday.
I am a woman of creative means, a maker of beautiful things and an erotic epicurean. My journey is from the inside out and it is exquisite. But it is sure taking its time.
I had fantastic plans for 2024- they were pretty epic: a second studio, extensive travel, an art exhibition , new workshops and rest.
What happened? A whole lot of introspection, compassion and forgiveness.
Forgiveness has been crucial in my creative evolution. Lugging around all the anger and pain of my past slowed me to a complete stop. I had to let go of something but what?
I had to learn a new skill- letting go of the past, of how things did not go.
Perhaps the hardest lesson of my life. It took practice + more practice.

So I sat.
In my new creative space and waited – here’s where the patience came in – for a sign or some form of direction. I knew life has other plans for me, I could not see them clearly yet. I so desired the blueprints to know what to do, to attempt some form of control of my life which seemed out of my hands.
When I sat in stillness for long enough, the answer came.
Create. Tell your story visually. Help other women write their story and breathe life into their beautiful selves. Create a space for creative upheaval and release.
Our stories bring us freedom. Surrender to your sensual story and find freedom in your truth.
Your creativity needs a outlet. Your voice. It is truly courageous for a woman to break her silence about her incredible creative power.
When we feel safe enough to drop into our divine, the truth resides there.